remembering.

my mind is a little clouded now a days.
its a little full of things I would like gone. Or at least..a little bit forgotten. But no. It isnt happening.
I remember kisses and hands.
I remember looks. eyes. i love his eyes.
i remember a language that is not my own.
I remember waking up. I dont remember falling asleep.
I remember talking about this:



maybe we should have talked about forgetting.
would have been wiser.
id like my mind to be mine again. If thats no trouble.
Id like my life to have some order again. now its just a little messed up.
loneliness is not an easy thing to work with.
mmm i wish i could forget.